Living For The Lord

I always believed in you. Then, I accepted you as my Lord and Savior at the age between ten or twelve.

I went through some hardships that sometimes made me doubt you. I even separated myself from you for a while out of anger, and misunderstanding of your nature. Nonetheless, the essence of your spirit still produced a purity within me.

Through it all, everything turned out okay. You taught me so much. You gave to me so much. You cared for me so much.

Upon my reunion with you, I gave myself completely to you. Never to depart from you, never to go astray. I am not mean to be that way.

I wake up in delight of your presence, I spend the day talking to you, walking in your grace. I retire in the night with you, drifting off to sleep under your guard.

The words I read in scripture bring life into meaning. They bring food to my soul, power into my spirit.

I do not live life on my own, I have really grown. I have never been of this world; I am not of it. I do not want any part of it.

I live my life for you, because of you. You live through me; you are within me.

You created me to have a relationship with you, to get totally acquainted with you. This partnership is supernatural, very extraordinary of its kind. A companionship to treasure, and one that will last forever.

 

 

The Lord’s Hold On Me: I Belong To God

I did not ask to come into this world. I did not have any say so within the matter. All I can do is trust in the Lord and what he has planned.

He intended my purpose before I was created, he will fulfill his aim to when I become designated.

My life is not my own It belongs to God. He chose me as one of his very own long before the foundation of the world.

The Lord already knew all about me, he designed me.

What I had to go through to where I am at now was determined before I could understand how the application of my exploration would give me a better understanding of my true dedication.

A chance to get to know God better, a chance to realize how blessed I have been, a chance to appreciate the providence and protection that has constantly been over me.

The Lord, who refused to let me go. The Lord, who knew I did not know the true love that he endeavored to show. The Lord, who from him, many gifts to me he bestowed.

Through a sudden and tragic unspoken fear, he readily triumphed to draw me near, replacing that fear with trust and hope, something that became an absolute must.

No God, you did not deal harshly with me, now only I can see. You returned to me the memories of the past to fast forward to me the present unto the future, to assure and confirm to me that you will continue to do everything you promised to do. Thank you.

 

 

Providence: My Great Protector

I noticed since early childhood the favor over my mother and I, and the manner in which God took great care of my family.

The Lord watched over us solicitously, his eyes vigilant to never waver, his hands fixed firmly on every situation. Even when I did not think or believe he was looking out or holding our circumstances in place.

We mattered to God. And, we still do.

I have been so very fortunate by his mercy and grace, covered by what seemed like an extra hedge of protection from others and the principalities of this evil world, and beyond.

When I look back, I see all that I avoided and escaped because of the wisdom and discernment granted upon me from the Lord. The comfort and peace I experienced in the midst of trials that made people of the world marvel at me in disappointment and wonder.

Enemies or adversaries that attempted to destroy me were defeated.

Even so-called believers who professed to be Christians The Lord had warned and protected me against, wholeheartedly coming to my rescue to head me out into safety.

God is definitely my refuge and strength, an essential help in times of trouble as well as in times of order.

 

The Pastor At The Church I Attended A Few Times

Last night, the pastor of the church I attended since September came into my mind. I thought about the settling that remained within my spirit after heeding the warning about him.

I still felt that stillness. It wasn’t until I watched two of his latest sermons online that my spirit became rattled once again.

Just by watching and listening to him those feelings came back. Those enlightening inclinations about him. Those same vibes of caution, but now even stronger.

The words he preached even gave details and glimpses into the true reveal of his disposition.

I think confronting him on the issue that I had with him brought out the truth of his conscious as he admitted his guilt on a few things in front of the congregation.

I noticed it because I knew what was partly behind his address.

He confessed how he struggled with being completely honest within his forthcomings with people, and how he needed to work on specific things within his nature and character. From his own mouth he acknowledged that he was resentful at times and had anger, hurt, and disappointment when his flaws were honestly pointed out.

This was only half of the story to my full discernment. One of my strongest gifts from the Lord is sensing things about people in areas that others cannot sense or pick up right away.

I am not at all being judgmental on this man. Nonetheless, God will make known unto us what he wants us to pay attention to and be secured against.

The Lord is just reminding and reaffirming to me that just because someone is a leader within the church does not mean they are perfect or the ultimate example of a fully mature Christian. Many battle inwardly as they too are only human.

Some are more troubled or incorrect than others. Either way, I know this pastor is someone for me to stay away from. The statements from my inner voice of spirited repeated again from the recent past, “He cannot be trusted, he is trouble, stay away from him”.

The message pierced right threw, giving me a bad feeling, a feeling I have received within the past when I was being supernaturally informed through intuition and gut feelings to beware of someone, a condition, or situation.

I am thankful to God for his divine guidance and instruction, even if or when others in particular are unable to decipher. The Lord interacts with us all differently as we are all unique in design.

I had planned to eventually visit the church again on a regular basis when able, however, after last night, I don’t see that happening.

It is not at all that I am letting the pastor’s negativity keep me away from Sunday worship because I was going to go regardless beforehand. I never let other people’s insecurity, hang up, pretense, or ignorance deter me.

However, some elements play a larger role in the events that take place and I will move on to another church the Lord will lead me to when the time is right.

Things enter our lives not always to take place as a permanent residence, but as a stepping stone to another more prominent built or structured abode.

Purity Of Spirit

All of us are different we all have our own needs, preferences, and desires. I have never been into sex and do not have any lustful urges or attraction for men or women.

I am not and never have been a lesbian nor have I ever been in a heterosexual love relationship. I just do not have any of those type of feelings, and pleasantly so.

Yes, God created sexual intercourse and intimacy between a man and a woman and there is nothing wrong with these emotions being expressed in its proper context as the Lord intended.

However, there is no commandment or sin in not wanting to engage within a romantic relationship.

I never had a need or yearning for a boyfriend or a marriage partner.

I did not care what direction the world was headed into because I was never a follower of the popular culture.

I was not afraid to stand out even if I was misunderstood, ridiculed, mocked, or targeted from being considered unusual.

I was more concerned with the peace and purity within spirit. I am not defined by what I do and do not do with my body, but I am identified by the spirit within me that inspires what I do and do not do with the temple that I live in.

My circumstance feels completely natural and suitable to the individual that I am.

The spirit has brought to me a peace, comfort, and joy unlike no other.

There are undoubtedly times that are hard, life is not easy. Even though, God is there, he permeates through the negativity to rejuvenate the positivity.

Let that power shine, and rest abundantly in the light that sustains.

The Body Is A Temple: Body, Mind And Spirit

The sun was out today. I had a delicious bowl of raisin bran cereal, three bananas, five tangerines, and a full cup of refreshing cold soymilk for breakfast.

From the time I was a preteen I was dedicated to eating right. It became a way of life that only enhanced and grew even stronger as I became an adult.

It feels good to maintain a balanced diet within accordance to my own bodily constitution, and to take well care of my health as best I can. It is just a natural part of who I am.

Everything starts with the mind and how we view the world and the situations around us. I was predisposed to be led by spirit, an essence that took me to my inner being to manifest a more enriching path of life.

How we treat our bodies can affect us spiritually, as well as physically and mentally. There is a purposeful intertwine. A healthy spirit will not tolerate any impurities of any kind. It is a thrive that is meant to survive properly. Suitable to the force where the drive is inherited.

We are not to abuse the temples that we live in with harsh drugs/chemicals or anything else unethical and inappropriate.

I do not know what I am going to have for dinner. I have not decided yet. My taste buds will let me know later.

 

At Peace: A Good Decision

Ever since I ceased from one-on-one discipleship/bible study with the pastor where I attended church I feel relieved and at peace.

I will still visit the church, but I do not intend to spend individual sessions of discussion with him ever again.

There are certain people who do not have the faculty to decipher the specific elements of spiritual essence and endowment. It goes over their head, beyond their ability to grasp, especially if they have not experienced a particular matter.

The Holy Spirit will continue to guide, advise, warn, and keep us safe, and others who are within the church who may be a snag or problem to us are no exception from being alerted or protected against.

Spending Time With God: The Power Of The Lord

The name of the Lord is very powerful. When I call on the name Jesus he never fails to come.

The devil will run instantly at the sound of his name. Peace will come immediately by the faith in his name.

I have experienced these realities all too personally and can readily, boldly, and joyfully give testimony to each and every tale of power that came from the result of believing and acting on the name of Jesus Christ.

In the morning, evening, and afternoon I consult with the Lord. I speak to him even if it is just to say, “Hi”. I tell God how I feel, ask him what he thinks about things I am unsure of, or I just explain to him how I feel.

The Lord does not ignore me either because I seek him with all of my heart. God knows our true intentions. He often answers me in a number of ways. One fashion is through my thoughts. As one of the Lord’s sheep, I do know his voice and I listen to him.

The closer we are to God the deeper he reveals and displays himself to us and significantly within our lives.

It is wonderful to know that we can turn to the Lord for any and everything. He is consistent and will not waver in providing for all our essential needs and humble desires.

It brings me great comfort to immerse myself in God’s word when I read through scripture and biblically inspired content. It enlivens the holy spirit within me, giving a literal warmth, and consoling grasp to my body. I feel a nice soothe from the spirit. A connection in harmony with being fed wholesome.

The best meal to taste is the one where we consume the word of the Lord. I eat and drink of it relaxed in bed, spending moments or even hours sometimes earnestly gathering instruction and knowledge before going to sleep.

Engaging in a relationship with God brings such fulfillment and a greater hope.

 

Heavy Workloads: Duties And Commute

Within the current field I work in there included quite a few roads of both convenient, and inconvenient, local and minor distant travel.

For seven years straight I have been a healthcare professional. Before then, and during my present area of employment I have also had multiple occupations within retail.

I have worked two jobs at a time holding a daytime position at one establishment and an overnight position at another.

I have traveled every day from my hometown of Queens, New York through New Jersey to upstate New York in Rockland County.

I have traveled every day or night to Manhattan and Westchester County.

I have worked Queens, Manhattan, Brooklyn, and Long Island. I have been to numerous locations all around the city. I have been almost everywhere.

I learned to travel at an early age. My mother use to take me along with her to places all the time. I watched and learned from then. When I branched out on my own during my teens, I already knew how to go from here to there and I had a natural sense of direction as so did my mother.

What I like and have liked about most of my jobs is that I had the fortunate advantage to work independently under my supervisors. There have been assignments that included teamwork and that is great too, especially when co-workers are responsible, capable and behave professionally. However, co-workers are not always dependable, sufficient or cooperative.

I had lead roles where I worked alone and took on and mastered different tasks and functions. I totally enjoyed all of my responsibilities, they were more like fun to me than mere work, and I excelled within all of them. I was like the “energizer bunny“! I just kept going and going.

I had problems and incidents with jealous coworkers yet the incidents did not deter me or interfere with my obligations. I was unbothered and paid their shenanigans no attention. I, of course, stood up for myself and even reported some of them when necessary. I was not afraid of anyone at any of my workplaces.

When I look back, I see how much I rip and ran throughout the years, not only for heading out to work but to taking care of personal business as well. Yes, I maintained a busy pace.

I once took my mother with me on one of the Coach USA buses, I used to catch either on the George Washington bridge or at the Port Authority bus terminal, depending on how I felt like going on any particular day, to pick up my paycheck from Palisades, New York when I worked on a special unit at a facility caring for Alzheimer and Dementia clients.

I thought it would be nice for her to get out and see a different scenery. She very well enjoyed the visit but conveyed to me when she partook in the commute from our bus-ride in queens to two train rides, a long walk underground in the train station through a long tunnel to then catch the thirty-minute bus-ride to our destination, “I would not do this every day”.

I could not blame her at all for her comment. I myself do not even understand how I did it or all of the other things I had done, and was capable of doing them without slacking off. Also, to mention, I was always very punctual, getting to my jobs ahead of time even!

Messages From The Lord: Childhood Memories

When I was around nine years of age, I remember a piercing dream that I had at the time. I was an extremely sensitive (very intuitive/spiritually inclined) child back then, keenly intelligent and highly aware. I was in-tuned to my surroundings whether physical or spiritual.

This was no ordinary dream; within the vision my mother had passed away and I was at her gravesite burial. The idea of my mother dying or being dead at that early time in my life was both heartbreaking and earth-shattering. Yes, quite traumatic and momentous. I could not have imagined life without her. It would have destroyed me so young because I loved her tremendously and we had a special bond.

In the morning, when I awoke from the dream, the emotional residue from what I had encountered lingered with me a bit. Soon I realized that my mother was not actually going to die, however, I was being divinely guided with discipline. God was using a devastating example to teach me a very valuable lesson.

The training behind the reprimand was to have more appreciation for my mother. The Lord’s act was warranted, and even at that age of nine it was appropriate and I understood. There were times when I was not being considerate and showing an unjustifiable attitude toward my mom due to whatever was going on within me.

I told my mother about the dream afterwards because I shared everything with her. She agreed with me about the message I received. I took the instruction from God appreciatively as I appreciated the warning and I indeed appreciated my mom all the more.

The Lord’s correction was done purely out his righteousness, and for his abundant love and compassion for my mother. I am so grateful that he also loved me enough to discipline me and show me where I was wrong. God used a significant tactic, the projection of how precious it was to respect and to value the presence of my mother in my life.

My mother had informed to me later in life that she prayed to the Lord when I was a baby to allow her to live long enough to see me able to become an adult, able to take care of myself. She didn’t ever want me to be mistreated or without the necessities of survival just like any exceptional mother who would lay down their life for their child would not.

God generously granted my mother her request and gave us very long years together. She was able to see me fend for myself, and her too, within the process. I am thankful to the Lord for giving me enough wonderful time with such a dear and loving mother. There are so many in life who didn’t get the chance or opportunity to grow up with a parent due to losing them early on in life.

My heart goes out to all who have experienced this unfortunate circumstance in life. It is important to treasure what matters most within our lives and live each day within recognition of each blessing.

Love Letter To Mom

My mother was a major influence in my world she made a huge impact on my life. Where would I be without the love, attention, and teaching that she gave to me?

Her and I were both smart academically, talented and gifted spiritually, able to learn on our own, to be self-taught without anyone having to train or to inform to us the certain significant matters of life and society. The Lord created us the perfect match for one another.

God played a solid role within my mother’s growth and maintenance. She told me he did a lot for her.

My mother went through a lot from an early age. I wonder how she came through so sufficiently to then endure further hardships with family and other jealous and troubled folk all the while continuing to be a phenomenal mother to me.

Aside from I recognizing God himself proving to be extremely faithful in most of our life circumstances, my mother is the reason I am able to put my hope and trust within the Lord.

Thank you, mommy, for teaching me to pray as a little girl. Thank you, mommy, for all those years of being there for me, always believing in me, always encouraging me. Thank you for being someone I could deeply and genuinely admire, look up to, respect and love ultimately.

Your sense of humor was out of this world, we both cracked each other up. You were funny without trying to be, you had that natural knack for inciting laughter. I get my gaiety from you.

I loved the fondness and ear that we had for different types of music and all of the moments we enjoyed together listening and jamming to the beats. The gospel music you used to play for years was also very inspiring and still motivates me to this very day.

I am so honored and glad that I was born to you, I could not have asked for a better parent. You deserve all the best reward for everything that you have done for me and other undeserving people, and for all that you had to go through in this crazy, twisted world we call a society.

I love you so much, the love you gave to me was untouchable. No one but God can surpass it. Your love highly contributed to my strength, self-worth, and security. You kept me full, never lacking or needing anything other than the nurturing I was supplied with.

I am a survivor, a complete woman due to the fierce and selfless woman in you. Mom, you sacrificed yourself as a true mother does always putting me first.

You were never last to me. You are my number one. The best woman I ever knew. You are my best friend, you and Brandie! Forever, and ever, and ever.

I love you.

 

The Loves Of My Life

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. -Psalm 139:13

I’m not at all ashamed to say that the only ones whom I truly, dearly and completely (wholeheartedly) loved out of my entire household was my mother and my dog (Brandie).

They were, still are, and always will be the loves of my life.

God blessed me with them and he blessed them with me. God made no mistake in placing each one of us into our lives together. We were all made for one another.

You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,  as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. -Psalm 139:15

I wonder how I was so lucky to have such loving and beautiful individuals not only to cross my paths, but to be the innermost part of me through a family relation.

You saw me before I was born.  Every day of my life was recorded in your book.Every moment was laid out  before a single day had passed. -Psalm 139:16

How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
They cannot be numbered!

I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me! -Psalm 139:17-18

I remember when I had wanted another puppy so badly as a young child after my very first one was cruelly given away by my grandmother. Two or three years later my mother took me to adopt Brandie, and she was perfect.

It was worth the wait through all of my impatience as God provided us with an exceptional pet. His plan was perfect!

I am very grateful and thankful for my mother and dog and all of the great years we enjoyed. Our bond is extremely special and forever cherished. God had made us three uniquely compatible.

Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. -Ephesians 1:4

 

In The Word: Spiritual Food (The Bread Of Life)

I enjoy spending time at home alone in the quiet of my room reading my bible.

I have quite a few bibles and devotional books that I pleasantly delve into.

I have a New King James version, a Tyndale New Living translation, Crossway English Standard New Testament version, Crossway English Standard Old Testament version which is a Scripture Journal: Old Testament set of individual books, and the Septuagint Orthodox Study Bible (Ancient Faith Special Edition).

My devotionals and other scriptural literatures that I have are also wonderful books of good quality and content.

In addition to my collection of books inspired by the word of God, I have online devotionals and biblical passages sent to me by email. It is a great and convenient way to access the bible and scriptural inspired literature at any time, especially while out on the go.

I myself have been inspired by God himself to express and spread his word through my own true experience, knowledge and natural talent of writing, and it is a delight.

As I am led by the Holy Spirit I get excited to write the messages that naturally flow out through me.

I’ve always been invoked by spirit to write, however, now it is along with the intent of sharing The Good News Of The Gospel as well.

Jesus said, I tell you the truth, Moses didn’t give you bread from heaven. My Father did. And now he offers you the true bread from heaven. The true bread of God is the one who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.” -John 6:32-33

 

 

“Sir,” they said, “give us that bread every day.”
Jesus replied, I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry again. Whoever believes in me will never be thirsty-John 6:34-35

 

Yes, I am the bread of life! Your ancestors ate manna in the wilderness, but they all died.  -John 6:48-49

I am the true bread that came down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will not die as your ancestors did (even though they ate the manna) but will live forever.” -John 6:58

 

 

 

Thanksgiving

I remember as a child and growing up how my mother would always prepare big holiday meals every year whether it was for Thanksgiving, Christmas or a little something extra during Easter season.

Holiday events are celebrated with the enjoyment of delicious food and drink, however, the festivities represent more than just the indulgence of eating a lavish satisfying dinner.

Thanksgiving is coming up and I am just thankful in itself.

I am thankful for everything that I am blessed with, and everything that I have ever been blessed with.

God has truly been very good to me and toward my family. When I look back on my life and where I’m at today I see just how many times he’s been there for me and how he never let me fall down to severely hurt myself.

I was fortunate to escape being damaged in anyway.

Like a loving parent, God prevented a lot of accidents and abrasions from occurring and stopped a lot of ruptures before they could start.

God has always been right there to catch me just in time to steer me back on my feet to stand upright and walk steadily in his grace.

Thank you Lord- latoyalawrence

 

A Dream

I had a dream last night informing me of some beneficial information. It’s wonderful to receive vital and helpful messages through celestial means.

Whether through visions, thoughts, feelings, telepathy, dreams and other modes of faculty it is very important to pay close attention to the details and sensations that are intangibly revealed.

 

 

Off Into The New Year: Into The Universe I Go

I don’t put my faith within others, but within myself, as no one knows me better than I know myself.

I spent Christmas Eve, Christmas day, New Year’s Eve, and New Year’s day at work earning that holiday pay.

Christmas is just another day to me as I stopped celebrating the festivity when I was twelve years of age.

The days and evenings went nice, quiet, and productive.

My new year has already started off to my liking. I continue to succeed at whatever I do because I am a conqueror who is full of wisdom, strength, and confidence.

Once I put my mind to something no one and nothing can stop me.

My new year will be another new beginning to the many chapters of my unique spiritual and earthly life.

 

Aura

I appreciate the vibe from the universe and am thankful to the powers that be for never allowing me to lose who I genuinely am, I have too much vigor inside to not have the light of my true being shine.

I awoke upbeat and with good energy all this past week, I had a wonderful time everday on my job, and I had an excellent outcome of events altogether on the forefront.

The weekend has gone nice, quiet, and peaceful as usual, the essence of “spirit” is all around me.

 

Black Magic/Voodoo/Witchcraft And The Spiritually Inclined

People came at me with black magic/voodoo/witchcraft when I was just seven to eight years of age.

One would have to be severely malicious to go after an innocent child.

However, I wasn’t any ordinary child, born with extrasensory perception, an advanced intellect, and an extremely strong will and spirit, I was a triple threat among morbidly twisted individuals.

My mother was in her twenties at the time as we were both targeted for being who we were, for our capacities, and for what we was able to do and to achieve.

We had also come from a very good loving family that others wanted to destroy so they had gotten to the few relatives who measured within their low-grade category.

These adversaries didn’t know or weren’t aware about the other upstanding and exceptional members of my family who lived and resided within numerous boroughs and within distant locations.

My additional relatives were top notch people and there were a vast maternal clan of them. I can attest and give account to their significant existence.

I am a proud descendant of my wonderful family tree.

We all have a few tattered branches, and withered leaves, that break off and that fall to the side for the wind to blow away from time to time. It’s just an unfortunate fact of life.

Sometimes the environment removes the toxic parts of an element in order to not taint or to contaminate the whole entire aspect. Nature has a way of keeping an atmosphere healthy and productive.

As a spiritually inclined individual who was highly sensitive within intuitive faculty, I was able to feel what was going on around me without being mentally or emotionally affected by the situation.

Black magic/voodoo/witchcraft never had any serious effect on my mind.

When adversaries realize the technique of “weakening the senses” is not conquering their target, they resort to a paranormal strategy to work on the emotions.

Anyone with heavy empathic ability “feels” to the core.

So if black magic/voodoo/witchcraft is used to deceive and to manipulate one through unnatural sensation to influence one’s thought process the instance may, or will, inevitably be felt.

Yet, the occurrence itself, is definitely not the same incident as actual domination, and it does not mean the black magic/voodoo/witchcraft is working on the individual target.

As highly spiritually inclined people, we get messages through the feelings that we intensely feel, and when someone directs negativity toward us we can pick up on the energy, and we are able to discern the circumstance without necessarily coming under the influence of the condition.

Black magic/voodoo/witchcraft has the ability to operate around us without maneuvering within our surrounding area, or personal space, especially when we have protection, a strong spirit, and a robust energy.

In specific cases, black magic/voodoo/witchcraft directed toward us spiritually inclined people will automatically backfire, depending on who we are, the intent, and the advantage celestially framing one.

Instead of us being compelled by what we are not receptive to our innate state of repulsion at the experience counteracts to paranormally repel all of the negativity.

 

Esoteric: Hidden Knowledge

I definitely have spirit guides/guardians and a mystical energy watching over me continuously, and if or when I need to reach out to them, they always come through for me within the most wonderful and generous of ways.

The situation is indeed extraordinary.

There is a higher power out within the universe other than what most people are aware of and accustomed to, I know this for a fact.

The explanation and solution to the many criptic unanswered questions in regards to the laws and circumstances of life, barged upon through the usual objectionable authority figures, and deity.

I’ve seen the vision, I’ve felt the energy, and I’ve experienced the communication.

Aside from legitimate ethereal encounters my logic, reasoning, and keen understanding had made the revelation obvious to me for a very long time now.

I know and believe in a force which has consistently proven to be trustworthy.

Of, course, there is so much unknown, yet enough known for me to put my faith into, and to hang in with.

I can honestly attest to events in which contradict the orthodox views, beliefs, and practices of society and government in general.

I’ve reigned as one who belonged within the unconventional category since the beginning of my existence here on earth, therefore, I wouldn’t be a stranger to an anomalous form of divinity who remains to be obscure.

In fact, I welcome the essence with open arms. The connection I feel is deeply rooted and profound, a further emancipation to the heart, mind, and soul of my innate state of being.

I have an intrinsic link to my higher power and to the mystical things that surround.

 

 

The Purpose Of The Caul

The Purpose Of The Caul, By Miss LaToya Lawrence


A lot of people don’t really know or understand what it actually means to be born with a caul.

One cannot learn through the internet, books, or word of mouth the depths of preternatural capacity and experience, people chiefly speculate, imagine, or merely rationalize within the lengths in which their minds will allow them to decipher.

Sure, we can share our stories and accounts, yet only individuals birthed under these special circumstances have true insight and understanding into the mysteries of our nature.

Anyone who doubts a person of the caul’s words of truth in regard to the instances of happenings that have, or that is able to take place, is either very naive or lacking in knowledge to the spiritual aspects surrounding our very existence.

Some of us can’t even explain why supernatural encounters occur to the extent that they do when effecting us within certain situations.

Nevertheless, the events teach us the extra layers to ourselves, and how our particular individual gifts work, and operate.

As we learn, we become more familiar and aware within life as well as within ourselves, because our propensities are who we are, inclination is our dominant feature, and within our attributed paranormal inherits, the condition addresses our whole entire state of being emphatically.

As a child, or adult of the caul, we tend to be very intellectually advanced individuals who often like, or who often prefer, to keep to themselves.

We keenly sense what is going on with other people and incidents as we connect to energy and to the vibes interacting within life force and within the ethereal sphere of the universe.

We are more connected to spirit than we are to the earth we physically live on. Our bodies reside here for a destined period of time, though, our hearts and minds abide and reflect the spiritual plane in which our souls originally manifested from.

One born of the caul usually gains wisdom and knowledge through the innate abilities incorporated to them by birth.

We are fed specific information through the energy we receive and pick up as we absorb vibration instantly, we process within mental faculty as well, and use both in conjunction to extrasensory radar such as precognition, clairvoyance, psychometry, and telepathy.

We are intuitively sensitive to a high degree, often engulfed, bombarded, or overwhelmed by the life concerning sensations that are instinctively interpreted and involuntarily felt.

We are a highlighted sample of creation in an example to the transcendental power that is within creation.

The meaning and purpose of one born of the caul is distinctive, pertaining to their own celestial path, preordained by genuine divine essence.

 

Child Of The Caul

The distinct novel of the caul is told by, to, and about, those supernaturally. So to whom it may concern, the energy will  automatically resonate.

What is read from the title down to each and every paragraph is an autobiographical chronicle, chronicling the autobiography of a life not published for a mainstream audience.

As one born of the caul the experience is an individual chapter into the pages of a book  written especially for the author.

It’s controversial when the lessons and so called facts taught and explained within society is highly contradicted by the mysteries of the unknown.

Connections through out the universe and outer scope are closer linked than one would imagine.

Vibration has a tendency to envelope us within the reality of truth in a way that allows our senses to remarkably interpret the things we intangibly hear, see, taste, feel, know, and inevitably discern.

In the instance of serious preternatural faculty the capacity is not measured by who’s life story one is able to look into or not look into, it is measured by the degree as to where, and how far one is able to view, and to look into life, and into creation.

I can account, and attest to the gravity in which a true caul birth holds, and denotes.

The sense of one having existed before or already having a familiarity with the encounters and the experiences within life on this plane or beyond is the connection and revelation to a life force and energy reflecting back to one’s very own actual state of being.

The circumstance of encompassing intense spiritual propensity is not only a connection to the otherworldly, it is the essence of life itself, to literally walk in spirit.

There is so much more to the nature of being born with a caul than just seeing visions and intuitively delving into the past, present, and future, through extra sensory perceptive ability.

We must heed and follow in accordance to the instruction and guidance within the knowledge naturally learned and granted to us through extraordinary faculty.

Yes, it is who some of us are, but it is also, what some of us are also liable for, due to the nature of the fortunate advantage we were born under.

To possess extreme spiritual propensity is a deep spiritual responsibility.

Paper Dolls

I have a lot of fond memories of my childhood growing up, and playing with my Barbies, and Paper Dolls, was high on the list.

I could not have imagined life without Barbie, and all the fun that came with playing in the world I created for her through my elaborate ideas.

I had plenty of Barbie accessories to indulge in during my inspired activities, and many hours spent enjoying the sport of bringing invention into origination.

The Paper Dolls were equally intriguing, holding a firm grasp onto my studious attention, while stimulating my broad streak of talent and vision.

Our childhood fun was more than just preoccupied enjoyment it was educational as well as recreational to the ever advanced and developing mind, no matter what kind of toy or item we had engagement within.

It was’t necessarily an object soley itself to encourage, but the fostering of our own faculty in which brought out the depth within our ability to analyze and to determine.

I had Barbie/Mattel brand Paper Dolls as well as some really cute other brands that shared a similarity to the likeness of Barbie.

The fancy cut outs would come with sectional and stylishly designed cardboard sets that came in the form of soda shops, bedrooms, ice cream parlors, and other lifestyle scenery to highlight, and to promote a realistic appeal that further stimulated the imagination.

Paper Dolls we’re also a great motivator for young children who we’re inspired to become fashion designers, or architects who sketched and drawed out outlines, and masterminded construction plans.

Baby On Her Feet

After my mother gave birth to me she didn’t want to have anymore children, and I’m glad to be an only child.

My mother invested a lot of time and energy into caring for me and raising me, and she did a spectacular job.

I can’t believe all of the effort and patience my mother had, she was a natural, my mother championed parenthood.

After having gone through so much as a child herself, and taking on the certain responsibilities of her own mother by practically raising her baby sister, my mother deserved much credit.

Although she took on duties that were not her obligations my mother still had a reasonable childhood and healthy upbringing thanks to her resilient spirit and solicitous other family members.

As it is a priority for a loving parent to nurture and to protect their child, the one most important thing my mother told me that she desired when I was an infant and a toddler, was to live to see me grow up and be able to fend for myself.

My mother wanted me to reach into adulthood safely and individually established.

My mother had gotten her wish, and even better than what she hoped for under our particular set of circumstances which came to test us every now and then through the discontentment of unsavory people who envied our lifestyle, and relationship together.

I turned out good, and enduring, all the way through.

For a while, during my mid teenage years, I wondered how things within life would be once I entered into my twenties, and my experience was also even better than what I had myself expected.

My mother and I had divine intervention looking out and watching over us. We beat the obstacles negative people tried to set before us.

I have a beautiful wish for my mother that I’d like her and I to both live to see develop, and eventually happen.

 

 

Mental, Emotional, And Spiritual Breakdown

Everyone who has had a breakdown of some sort is not weak, crazy, or dangerously unstable.

A breakdown is spiritual within many instances. A Yoruba priestess even acknowledged this fact to me years ago. I know firsthand as my own mother was a victim of brujeria in the early 1980’s.

I was even targeted. My aunt tried to flip me out when I was eighteen years of age by putting the hallucinogenic drug mescaline into a hot pot of black eyed peas that I had cooking over the stove.

People often use recreational “trip” drugs to increase the chance or enhance the effect of mental and chemical alterations of the brain while also performing the negative spiritual influences within black magic/voodoo/witchcraft.

My aunt went a step further in her malicious attempt by also putting tainted hiv fluids inside my food. Anyone educated would know the disease would not survive within the air and within a pot of scalding hot water.

Nevertheless, I didn’t lose my head or have a breakdown, my mind was too strong with faculty and awareness, and I didn’t, of course, become infected with aids either.

I was young, innocent, and very spiritually inclined, so divine intervention took over and protected me.

My aunt Tina (Ernestine Lawrence) has been hiv positive since the 1980’s due to intravenous drug use and promiscuous behavior from the 1970’s on up and instead of using her limited time to spend changing her life around for the better, she continued to do tons of constant dirt. She and other envious and jealous ruthless dummies, whores, drug addicts, and degenerates attacked me and other family for decades.

They’ve in addition done it to others, however, when they came after my mother and I, they messed with the wrong individuals. We are people of the light and they are people of the darkness. My ancestors and orishas were ready for them all, and the universe was recording and keeping record of every notorious deed in which was repeatedly done toward us.

Tina had poisoned food of my mother’s years ago too while neighbors were working black magic/voodoo/witchcraft against her.

My grandfather was driven to mental affliction before he was killed and found dead in the Hudson river.

My aunt Charise was drugged and raped which caused her to be afflicted with mental illness.

My grandfather, mother, younger aunt, and I were targeted for manipulative breakdowns because we were all very smart, strong, and fighters who could literally kick ass if needed be. We weren’t the type to back down or be bullied by anyone, and we were all good upstanding people.

The intent for causing mental, emotional, and spiritual breakdowns are to weaken one, to render them as incredible, and to lower their self esteem and spirit.

Certain evildoers want those of us who have knowledge in which threaten their unscrupulous ways either dead or labeled as crazy.

 

 

 

My Kitchen: Spiritual Preparations

All of my concoctions stem from the authentic seasonings bestowed to me by the manufacturing hands of the universe.

A pinch here, and a dash there, the aroma is fresh, and the recipe, intangible. -Miss LaToya

I was automatically initiated into the priesthood by birthrights as I was born with a caul, and a natural inherent occult power (energy).

I don’t do or believe in animal sacrifice and I don’t do or follow satanic practices.

I live, cleanse, and heal through the utilization of herbs, fruit, vegetables, vitamins and through the instruction, guidance and purity of spirit.

Essence essentially nurtures and protects and leads into continuous enlightenment and elevation.

I operate strictly within my own alignment unto the universe. I have firsthand knowledge and first rate experience.

I interact with air, earth, fire, and water, the four elements of nature, the life of elemental factors.

Tuned in, at higher consciousness, force and vibration. 

I am in connection to the intermediaries and to the line of maternal lineage: my phenomenal Orishas, and my astounding and incredible Ancestors.

I am the real deal.

 

 

 

 

 

 

She, Her, My Dog: An Abundant Spirit

 

Puppies and dogs are special. Many of them have psychic capacity, extra ordinary instinct and intuition, the power to help and to heal, and a very strong connection unto spirit. Their existence is vital.

The moment she was first placed within my arms I felt an instant connection. She was so calm and still, her body didn’t flinch a bit.

She was content in my little arms. We were both young and just about to start the rest of our innocent lives together.

When I first brought her into my home I did everything I was supposed to do. I gave her the dewormer medicine the veterinarian gave to me, then checked her stool which never manifested any parasites, and she never had any type of worms through out her whole entire lifespan.

I gave to her everyday her ear medication as I rubbed the cream inside of her ears so that they would successfully heal from the infection the shelter told me she had, and they did.

My seven to eight week old puppy was in the best of hands. My ten year old mind was ahead, and on top of it all.

I fed her everyday, trained her, played with her, talked to her, comforted her, took her almost everywhere with me, and let her sleep in my bed.

We were the best of friends and one day when I was older she let me know just how close-knit we actually were and she was able to show me our neverending ties to one another. We had a way of communication that spoke louder than words.

I gave her plenty of my love and she was included as a member of the family and treated the most benevolently by everybody in the home as well. Yet she genuinely knew who she was celestially sent to and why she was here.

I was told how good I had taken care of my dog for the seventeen years that I was blessed with her. She was treated as an individual who had her own mind, who had her own feelings, who had her own wants, and who had her own specific needs. And she reacted accordingly, often excelling within the faculties of what one would have expected and I nurtured those attributes and talents she bestowed from within.

Environment was very important to my dog she was happy, very affectionate, loyal, intelligent, highly intuitive, and very observant of her surroundings.

She didn’t like conflict or disharmony and she was provided an atmosphere in where she could productively take in nature, where she could flourish, and where she could enjoy her peace.

She generated and exuded an energy that was magnetic, her aura was full of light. Her state of being was remarkable and her existence was magnificent.

Energy: Well Wishes

My energy within the universe.

I have noticed ever since I was a youngster that I’ve constantly gotten the things in which I had desired.

It wasn’t the bratty type of situation whereas I had to have everything that I wanted.

It was private thoughts of certain wishes.

The majority of the desires were granted to me no matter how soon or how long it may have taken for me to receive my requests.

Till this day I still get the things I want as well as the things in which I also need.

 

 

 

 

 

Parents: Forever Thankful And Grateful

When people do right by me I always remember them and I will have their back, as I am loyal, genuine, and solid.

When people do wrong by me I always remember them and those people better watch their back, as I am trustworthy, authentic, and vile. – Miss LaToya

For a lot of us our parents are the first people we bond with when we enter into this life.

Some of us have good experiences with our folks and some of us have bad experiences with them.

Fortunately, I was exceptionally well taken care of by my mother, especially under the circumstances and burdens in which she was put through by unsavory individuals and the unnatural trials of life (Witchcraft/Black Magic).

Through out it all and no matter what occurred nothing ever prevented her from being an excellent mother to her child.

I’ll never forget how well I was taken care of and how much I was loved and respected by my very own mother as a child on up until the present and the regard goes a long way.

My mother can always count on me to be in her corner and to always look out for her and not out of obligation but out of an enormous appreciation.

 

Botanica Shop: Spells, Rituals, Spiritual Work, Spiritual Supplies

Earlier this year, I was traveling back home from running an errand, and I decided from where I was located to take a convenient bus ride that would leave me within a reasonable distance from a Botanica store that I use to frequent.

So, from there, I went and headed to my destination. I wanted to pick up a few candles.

While I waited on line to purchase my items I observed a woman who had her young son present, being helped by a staff member who worked inside of the Botanica store.

One of the women staff was aiding the customer within the specifics of a voodoo/black magic ritual.

I watched the woman hand over a few hundreds of dollars for the spell and for the materials to go along with the voodoo/black magic ritual.

The staff member behind the counter told the woman how to write her lover’s name over parchment paper, and how to put certain things inside of his sneakers/shoes, to control his attitude toward her.

From what I heard through the customer and staff member’s discussion, the woman’s boyfriend was cheating on her with another woman while also treating her with savage disrespect, and taking money from her, to support and entertain his other woman.

Why would anyone want to continue on in a relationship with someone who would behave so rudely and cruel toward them?

Then, go through the length of spending volumes of money, in which should be used for a constructive purpose, in a desperate attempt to deceptively change that person, and to manipulate both of their situations by trying out voodoo/black magic?

I could not imagine wasting any of my time or money on such an absurd circumstance. However, I’m a logical and reasonable individual.

As a genuinely spiritually inclined woman myself who was born with the gifts of extra sensory perception, and an authentic natural power of occult, I’d never use any of my faculties in such an irresponsible or irreverent way.

In doing any type of spiritual work one should operate on a rational and justifiable basis.

Their essence must include knowledge and foresight within judgment in accordance to the nature and origin of one’s own spirituality as well as to the aspects of their own state of being.

Connecting to the universe on unaligned and unbalanced grounds serves no relevance unto the purpose of significant manifestation.

When one intends to further delve into a condition with the intent to endure an intention that was not right to begin with,  the outward result never ends up as what was intended.

When spiritual work is done in harmony to the tune of a melody sung within rhythm to the beat, each of our notes play to the music, creating a sound for us to energetically dance to.

When I consult my Orisha Elegba/Eleggua the lyrics consistently speak volume, and his  splendid album never scratches or skips off track, the needle to the phonograph is constantly on point.

Unbreakable: A Strong Mind Cannot Be Broken

When the spirit is strong and the mind is pure no amount of insalubrity can tarnish its ravishing essence- miss latoya

When my mother, Patricia Lawrence, was twelve years of age she won the top spelling bee of her whole entire school, not of her class, the entire school.

She was awarded a gold pen in front of the school auditorium in recognition for her achievement.

When I was eight years of age the same circumstance occurred upon my life. I received a gold pen for being one of the top best readers within the entire school, not just in my classroom, but out of the whole entire school as well.

I also received a gold pen directly in front of my entire school auditorium.

I was never uncertain about myself and genuine people in my corner have constantly believed in me.

I’m proud of those in particular who are naturally incorporated with various faculty it is inspiring and wonderful. I like to see deserving people succeed.

When we’re very young a lot of us know what we’re good at and what we are capable of doing and proceed on within pursuing or accomplishing the goals in which spark our interests.

It is vital to never abandon the gifts and talents we are born with and to never allow anyone to cause any type of discouragement, or self doubt within oneself, to do so would be ludicrous.

Especially, when one knows better.

There are envious people in life who’ll come around to call us the opposite of who we are, and who will attempt to deviously persuade us to believe we don’t have the capabilities that we indeed do surely possess, all because they do not share within our beautiful spotlight and they just want to pull us all down.

They not only endeavor to cause us to question or doubt our abilities, but our character as well.

It is a head game in which only works on weak-minded individuals.

A strong-minded individual never let’s anyone steer them into a direction leading toward a false reality.

It is illogical for a strong-minded individual to listens to lies in which our truths have innately revealed, and already defined.

Our paths are open, our steps are ordered to move consistently, take the prizes granted unto us, and create a personal self fulfilled destiny and prosperity.

Continue to sail forward and be fierce!

Motivational Speaker

I was told more than once by certain people that I should become and would do well as a motivational speaker.

I honestly had never gave the idea any thought.

I was also told by a few I’d do very well in psychology yet I did at one time actually give thought to my capacity and potential within the study and science of the mind and personality before anyone had mentioned the suggestion to me.

Psychology comes naturally to me as I’ve always analyzed people and situations and if I had chose that path I would have made a darn good psychologist.

I am a very open minded individual with a heightened ability to perceive, and I also logically know, and understand, there is more to behavior and ways of thinking than what is widely generalized and categorized.

I do have great communication and interpersonal skills, however, I don’t think within the fashions of average society and some take my words or expressions in the incorrect way.

I have a very strong and unique mindset in which many never understood, though, people who are on the same wavelength do relate and harmonize with me.

We all have our own differences, nevertheless, sometimes a fresh or unusual viewpoint or revelation can be interesting, inspiring, and invigorating.

 

Innovative Style: Spirit Mode

There are many who don’t get hired for a specific job due to their over qualifications while many are employed within jobs in which they are over qualified to be working.

Many also desire to venture out into their own establishments and conduct businesses of their very own.

Where it may seem impossible, there can be ways made in order to ultimately break through, if one is steadfast and celestially aligned within the universe.

Anyone with the proper funds are able to open up a business. The question is can they sufficiently operate and run a solid business? Do they have what it takes to prosper and to maintain?

A lot of business undertakings do not last and investments fall hard, leaving entrepreneurs within a hole.

Although no pursuit is guaranteed when vibration is within balance and in correspondence to one’s destiny circumstance no longer falls into risk the situation becomes concrete.

I know to listen to the inner voice of wisdom and spirit. When those celestial stars begin to open up, the force will inevitably instruct one to, go for it!

 

Envious And Jealous People

Jealousy and envy is very real and it is a very ugly emotion and thing in which causes discontentment and resentment within certain individuals towards others.

Have you ever had positive situations going for you and those in particular attempted to spoil the advantages?

It happens all of the time with many of us who are productive and who are able to flourish.

People are ready and are often on standby looking to prevent and to tarnish the prospects of opportunity as they don’t like to see others succeed and get ahead.

The most important thing to do is to always stay aware, keep up at having a genuine sense of self, purpose, and foundation.

Continue to revel within your own personal happiness, peace, and determination to proceed forward as no one can destroy one’s true inner joy, serenity, and motivation if they are strong within mind and spirit.

Craving

My mother, Patricia, made herself some potato salad earlier today and had fried chicken wings to go along with it.

The meal satisfied her fancy as her preparation turned out just the way she wanted.

She told me her food tasted good.

So my mother and I both prepared two of our own separate meals in which our appetites craved and took pleasure within.

I had an awesome breakfast and she had an amazing lunch.

Simple things like this make us happy and content.

Spiritual Work: Occult Power

I was born with a caul, a circumstance which also imparted me with a natural inherited occult power, a supernatural energy to generate and to manifest, through the connection within spirit.

I still almost cannot believe myself how the universe generously cooperates with me. It is astounding and I am deeply touched by the condition. A state I’ve experienced since childhood though now to an elevated degree.

The average person would not understand how this intangible process works only a “special person” is able to see into and discern the instance.

We in particular all have our own celestial design.

Every spiritually inclined individual may not be able to pinpoint the exact situation within another, as distinction serves to protect and sustain, however, while they cannot honestly deny the reality they are able to clarify the existence thereof.

 

 

Psychic Eye

As a person born with authentic preternatural capacity It was never “required” for me to read tarot cards, know anyone’s date of birth, see a description of one’s physical appearance, or gather background information in order for me to accurately pick up on their circumstances or personality.

As soon as I hear a person’s voice, hear of them, or notice them I receive intuitive messages, whether these people are near, or afar.

Things will come to me about people who I don’t know, people I have never met, and people who I am not aware exist.

It is all about energy and connection to the universe.

Anything deployed within addition are just tools used to enhance vibration.

Extra sensory perception is just exactly what it is, a “heightened sense of perception beyond the normal faculty of ordinary range”.

Spiritual Advisors

The reality of it all is there really aren’t too many legitimate psychics out there.

The majority of individuals advertising as spiritual advisors have absolutely no spiritual abilities at all.

Most of them are just scam artists who are unable to succeed within life as they don’t have the knowledge or skill to excel anywhere else and often come up with schemes in which to make fast or easy money.

Those very few with true psychic ability who are of upstanding character don’t waste time at trying to take advantage of anyone for money.

They are only interested in earning their funds honestly and with dignity.

Gifted people of this nature usual have multiple faculties and are preoccupied with further developing and utilizing their talents and skills to produce and to accomplish their specific goals and carry out their celestial missions in which bring to them a personal fulfillment and the betterment of self.

Genuine people of “sight” are not led by greed or idle they are led by purity and distinction within spirit.

 

 

Short Bio/Miss LaToya

 

LaToya was born with the caul and is very spiritually inclined. She is clairvoyant.

She was very advanced as a child, able to see and communicate with spirits, and very “in tune” and aware within her surroundings.

Gifted with an extraordinary comprehension along with second-sight/extra sensory perception LaToya has always had great learning and communication skills, and an uncanny insight into occurrences.

LaToya was constantly able to sense things about people and situations in which other people couldn’t sense.

In the beginning of her young life:

LaToya Lawrence was born and raised in Queens, New York by an independent hard working mother. She is an only child yet she comes from a very large family, some of whom, own their very own successful businesses.

LaToya’s mother taught her how to read and write at 2 years of age and soon after entered her into daycare at 2 and a half. At school LaToya excelled and was able to skip a grade into a class for gifted children.

At the age of ten LaToya began to write short stories and had the opportunity to get her writings published by a mainstream publisher. By the age of 12 LaToya knew she wanted to be a professional author and self published two novels in her early twenties.

LaToya became a vegan at the age of fourteen, is a animal lover, as she always grew up in a home with puppies and dogs. One special canine which she loved dearly she had for seventeen years. LaToya has practiced gymnastics and has worked in retail.

LaToya is an avid reader of true crime novels and suspense. She loves all types of music and as she is very creative she enjoys crocheting, art, exploring and the outdoors.

LaToya has also worked professionally within the health care field for six years and has over twenty years experience in caring and attending to elders and those in need.

LaToya has worked in retail for thirteen years.

LaToya plans to eventually open up her own business, one in which will utilize her multitalents and multitasking abilities.